If I end up posting this it will be surprising....
Call me crazy, I know, call me what you want, but I still am bothered by the fact that Miley and Irelyn were preemies. I was sending some pictures to my sister last night and started looking at some pictures of the girls when they were in the Nicu. I see pictures like this all the time, yet sometimes it really bothers me. This morning, while driving to the bank I started crying. Ridiculous, I know. I just feel like my body let me down. I know that being pregnant with twins means that you have a higher chance of early delivery, but 29 and a half weeks? Really? What happened to 40 weeks?
Irelyn was in the Nicu for 6 weeks and Miley for 7.5 weeks. They were released from the hospital before their due dates and they are doing amazing. I mean, Miley is in the 90th percentile for height and weight. She is no preemie anymore. Yet, I still have this sadness because they were born so early.
The girls are almost 2 years old. I hope this feeling goes away. I hope it doesn't haunt me forever. And, even more importantly, I hope the girls do not remember their Nicu experience. I hope they do not remember their fight to stay alive. We had a relatively smooth ride. I can't even imagine how some other parents feel.
It may be mean to say, but I don't believe that you even understand how I feel unless you have been in my shoes. If you, had a preemie (or knew someone VERY close to you who did). I just hope this feel goes away. Don't pity me. Miley and Irelyn are absolutely amazing girls. They have come SO incredibly far. I just wish I could lose this nagging feeling.
Sorry, to ramble today.
A few early on pics that I like. I would say the girls were about a month old.
